Thursday, September 22, 2005
Ayoko ng Ganito!
Ewan ko ba. I've been having loads of problems, disappoinments and fear. Pero for some strange reason, I can't cry about it. But I really just want to scream my lungs out. Natuyo na ata glands ko sa mata, gusto ko talaga umiyak, but I just don't or just cant? I really find it strange, kasi I really feel like my heart's gonna burst. Ewan talaga, but I think it would have been better if I just cry it out. Hay naku, hayaan nyo akong mag emote, basta so unfair kasi. I've been treating people the way I want them to treat me, but most of the times some people who I mostly I expect to do the same, treat me like I'm a total stranger. Minsan worst pa nga eh... Maybe that's when I get upset. Eh, basta, find it hard to accept that even though they can approach me nicely, they still chose the brutal way of doing stuff. I don't even have the opportunity to talk and sometimes even just to think. I'm a nice person, ok maybe not that nice, but why am I always being treated so badly? Eniwei, might be just feeling this cause these people are the ones I find so close to my heart. As the song goes nga di ba, "why do we always hurt the ones we love?" I hope this means they love me, kaya ganun?
Waaaahhhh!!! Ayoko ng Ganito!!!! Bad day lang talaga siguro ko, kasi sinimulan ng Monday eh. Ayan sira na araw ko! Grrrrrr!!! Tapos kay dami dami ko pang problem sa work. Letseng nag proceess nung file ko na taga ibang part ng Asia eh, so STUPID STUPID PEOPLE EH!!! Super natagalan tuloy ako. SYET!!!! I'm loosing my patience na talaga. Kung pede lang sigawan na talaga sila ng "GIDDAMIT MORONS!!!" Lalo na yung Kapreng Pasadsad ang ilong, aysus! Ke ishtupid, morones!
Ayan nakapag curse na ko, let me tell you about my dream 2 days ago... Again its about Tuod. Well, probably deserved this after having such a bad day. I actually wished that I'll dream about him. God was so kind, and there! He's in my dream, salamat po!!! Back to my dream, I can't stop myself na daw, I introduced myself to him. The conversation goes...
"Hi I'm Eloisa and you're?" - extending my hand and as if di ko alam name nya, hehehe!
"Manny," he answered - teka di naman yan name nya.
Well, I believe him, I kinda heard a teammate of him, calling him in a different name (Last name ng full name ni Prince William). Anyway come to think about it, will a guy give his real name to a very eager girl like me? He's very pleasant naman. He even asked me to hold his stuff for him, kasi we're both waiting for a ride home eh, he forgot something and came back to get it. Strange lang kasi cellphone charger sa kotse yung isa item na hawak ko, e bat pa sya wait ng ride? Tapos ayun na. Its not much, pero ewan ko ba, I felt so close to him. Pathetic!
Aaaaahhhhh!!! Ayoko ng Ganito!!!
posted by ewoi at 8:37 PM
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Ayoko ng Ganito!
Ewan ko ba. I've been having loads of problems, disappoinments and fear. Pero for some strange reason, I can't cry about it. But I really just want to scream my lungs out. Natuyo na ata glands ko sa mata, gusto ko talaga umiyak, but I just don't or just cant? I really find it strange, kasi I really feel like my heart's gonna burst. Ewan talaga, but I think it would have been better if I just cry it out. Hay naku, hayaan nyo akong mag emote, basta so unfair kasi. I've been treating people the way I want them to treat me, but most of the times some people who I mostly I expect to do the same, treat me like I'm a total stranger. Minsan worst pa nga eh... Maybe that's when I get upset. Eh, basta, find it hard to accept that even though they can approach me nicely, they still chose the brutal way of doing stuff. I don't even have the opportunity to talk and sometimes even just to think. I'm a nice person, ok maybe not that nice, but why am I always being treated so badly? Eniwei, might be just feeling this cause these people are the ones I find so close to my heart. As the song goes nga di ba, "why do we always hurt the ones we love?" I hope this means they love me, kaya ganun?
Waaaahhhh!!! Ayoko ng Ganito!!!! Bad day lang talaga siguro ko, kasi sinimulan ng Monday eh. Ayan sira na araw ko! Grrrrrr!!! Tapos kay dami dami ko pang problem sa work. Letseng nag proceess nung file ko na taga ibang part ng Asia eh, so STUPID STUPID PEOPLE EH!!! Super natagalan tuloy ako. SYET!!!! I'm loosing my patience na talaga. Kung pede lang sigawan na talaga sila ng "GIDDAMIT MORONS!!!" Lalo na yung Kapreng Pasadsad ang ilong, aysus! Ke ishtupid, morones!
Ayan nakapag curse na ko, let me tell you about my dream 2 days ago... Again its about Tuod. Well, probably deserved this after having such a bad day. I actually wished that I'll dream about him. God was so kind, and there! He's in my dream, salamat po!!! Back to my dream, I can't stop myself na daw, I introduced myself to him. The conversation goes...
"Hi I'm Eloisa and you're?" - extending my hand and as if di ko alam name nya, hehehe!
"Manny," he answered - teka di naman yan name nya.
Well, I believe him, I kinda heard a teammate of him, calling him in a different name (Last name ng full name ni Prince William). Anyway come to think about it, will a guy give his real name to a very eager girl like me? He's very pleasant naman. He even asked me to hold his stuff for him, kasi we're both waiting for a ride home eh, he forgot something and came back to get it. Strange lang kasi cellphone charger sa kotse yung isa item na hawak ko, e bat pa sya wait ng ride? Tapos ayun na. Its not much, pero ewan ko ba, I felt so close to him. Pathetic!
Aaaaahhhhh!!! Ayoko ng Ganito!!!
posted by ewoi at 8:37 PM
30 comments